It sounds like, from some FB posts in the past couple of weeks, the teacher I've been in love (lust?) with since I was 14 has either found himself someone else or has gone back to his wife.
Now I consider myself a pretty big-hearted person, and as such, all I really want is for the people around me to be happy. Really and truly happy, no matter what that looks like for them. At the same time, there was a thought in my head that he would be leaving his wife, and that there might be some sort of chance for us to see if there was actually something between us. After seeing those comments, it looks unlikely.
I am disappointed by this, and there's this feeling in my chest that's not quite pain. So I guess I get to feel this for a little while, and then I'll be better. Haven't felt this way in a while, and I'm just not digging it.
Just a point of clarification, in case someone I know actually reads this. I was not involved with him; I don't get involved with men who are married, no matter how sucky their marriage is. I'm not EVER going be the "other woman".
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